Survivor Art Warning

Keep in mind that survivor art is not about beauty. It reveals trauma...sometimes in a subtle way. Sometimes rather graphically. The beauty, to me, is in being a witness to my own healing from the images given to me by formerly traumatized and even suicidal alters.

Please use caution in viewing this site. I'm proud to be sufficiently healed to share this art (most of which was done from 1997 to 2000). All depicted in the images have integrated. This is me when I was "we".

12.05.2008

The inside story of ME

The last two standing.


A connection to Ellie (naked & little hair).


ME and Ellie together as one. My hairstyle.


Me prior to 2007 medical disaster.

I had indicated my next post would feature Jane. Instead, by design (since there are no accidents in my world), I came across pictures of Christy Turlington online today. She became the internal identity for whom I knew as an early identified female protector. She first went by several names, which was confusing. She then became M.E. (distinct separation of letters & pronounced "Emmie") and finally ME. She is both part of me and my inner wisdom or higher self, hence the "upper" case letters. Her internal job was caring for the littles. Once a new little or littles were found, she would take them to a still unknown internal healing place. ME had a lovely healing light surrounding her. She felt like a loving internal sister.

I have many images of ME. It was her image on the cover of Elle shown above that I took with me to my hairdresser in 2004, the year I decided to rid myself of my constantly annoying naturally curly hair and have it professionally straightened. Her haircut became my haircut. It's not much different now. This is how my insiders have always viewed "me". Of course, I have always felt much younger inside. *g* Thought this might be an interesting healing post.

While putting these images together, it became my validation that Jane was the original child and Ellie was the first split. My healing has tended to be backwards of what was done to me (not always an apparent message). The message of the the above images is "ME split" and one was Ellie (LE). Maybe one day I'll figure out about the names that were just letters.

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