Survivor Art Warning

Keep in mind that survivor art is not about beauty. It reveals trauma...sometimes in a subtle way. Sometimes rather graphically. The beauty, to me, is in being a witness to my own healing from the images given to me by formerly traumatized and even suicidal alters.

Please use caution in viewing this site. I'm proud to be sufficiently healed to share this art (most of which was done from 1997 to 2000). All depicted in the images have integrated. This is me when I was "we".


What Does It Mean?

I've come to learn that if I need to know what something means I can start an art set with the item and build a set around it. Since my last post with the hearts and pink stairs, I learned there was a split during a trauma when I was three years old. Her name is Rose and she will soon appear. Older sets showed  I'd had self-destruct programming if Rose ever integrated. I did a set showing the programming had been undone. But then I did these two sets showing an adult part of me, Ellie, and her connection to Rose.

Ellie's last memory of baby Rose.

Ellie (front) and Rose in background, healed and grown up, about to join the rest of us.

After seeing these sets together, I realized both had veils separating Ellie and Rose. I wanted to know if it was something dangerous I needed to deal with before the reunion. The name of the turquoise veil is "flutter" so I started the next set with the turquoise butterfly.

This put my mind to rest that the veil was the connection of their spirits. The blue and purple light in this set has always gone with the Gracie part of me who integrated in early June and also with Rose, showing their strong connection.

I'll be going to France on vacation soon and will write in my Healing From & Understanding DID blog about that experience.


Ann Marie said...

You seem to show another side of life - that which I've had so little experience - that of the artist. I reread your "healing through images" comments and it seemed to make more sense to me. The next time I looked through the last set of pictures, we took our time and put a permission out to feel/seek them. For as much we could peek ... it was pretty damn cool! THANKS!!!!!!

I really liked the work barely shadowed in of "inspiration" ... then we thought "perspiration" as to the work of change, but that you allowed it to sift in "gracefully." We have a Grace within us too. Finally, we smiled a "flashing" smile and thought simply, "Vacation!" Congrats!

Our best,

Grace said...

Hello Anns, Thank you for your lovely comments! Am reading and commenting from Paris where I seem to be having a dual journey. Can't wait to know how it plays out. Tomorrow am on my way to 44N.

Anonymous said...

Grace, what happened at 44N?

Grace said...

Healing happened. A series of internal events that continued long after I returned home. One particular day the external world seemed to collide with internal world. Just odd but fascinating synchronicity.